Who Am I?

Hello. You can call me Ally. I’m 26 years of age and I live in a largish town in the northeast of England. I am currently out of work but enjoy landscape and city photography and would like to do something in that area, some day. I don’t do much else. I try to pass the time with menial hobbies. Physically, I’m around nine stone in weight, wear glasses, am of recent Italian decent and have medium long dark brown hair that makes me look like a cross between John Lennon and a hobo.

I would like to point out that I’m a man. MALE! This is because of some confusion, which crops up now and again.

So why have I created this blog? Well, when I was younger, I was so much more confident than I am now. I had a few close friends. Today, however, I have become introverted with a degree of social anxiety. I spend much of my time alone trying to keep myself busy. Despite this apparent loneliness, I’m actually quite happy. I have my health, my family, my books, my stories and my beloved photography. And I have a head full of ideas, thoughts and a certain surrealist joy that I cannot express because, after more than a decade, my introversion is insurmountable. But only in the real world. Writing online about my life, ideas and thoughts I have had each week enables me to share with the world my thoughts in a way that I am not able to otherwise do. This blog is an outlet for the extrovert buried deep inside of me.

If I can convince just one person that I am capable of humour, expression and extroversion, things my whole life I’ve been told I’m incapable of because I’m shy, and have been bullied for, then I know that I can live my life with a happy heart that I have always longed for. I’m doing this to prove to myself that shyness will never be a barrier for me or indeed anyone.

As you can see from comments I have received (below), I achieved this goal. But I’m not going to stop. I enjoy doing this blog and it remains important for me to show others that shy people are capable of anything, and, indeed, that anyone, regardless of who they are, is capable of anything. Most importantly, I want to show that no book, shy or otherwise, should ever be judged on face value. We are all equal and we should strive to view and treat one another that way.

If you wish to leave a general comment about the blog or a comment you feel could help others regarding what I talked about above, leave a comment below. If you’d like to send me a private, personal message, head to the ‘Contact Me’ page and I’ll get the message as an email. If you want me to contact you back, you’ll need to put your email address in the message.

Thank you for reading.

10 thoughts on “Who Am I?

  1. Christine.

    Hi Ally, (I wish I’d checked this post before I commented on your latest one; I would’ve put your name on it). When we write, we can show the extroverted person we would love to be but struggle to show. I was, and still am, shy in certain situations. I have got better over the years but I still blush profusely when I have to meet/speak to new people. In my job, I have to talk in front of a class of children with maybe other adults present. I do that because it’s my job but I still feel shy. Can I just say that after a while, you will overcome your shyness, although there’s nothing wrong with being shy. The world needs all sorts of people as there are too many that love the sound of their own voices. I find your posts very humorous and interesting. You have a very endearing quality to your writing. I love the way you use colloquial words too in your posts. It made me chuckle the way you described your moth. I don’t know who told you that you wouldn’t be able to write and be an extrovert (which is a bit cruel I have to say), but you have proved them wrong. Totally. You don’t mention your parents so I guess you live without them? For a 21 year old, you have already shown how well you can achieve your goals. Please carry on proving those bullies wrong and don’t let your shyness be a barrier. You have a great future. If you need any help, you know where I am. Take care, Christine :)

    1. theindeliblelifeofme Post author

      I’ve made this wonderful comment public in case any shy passerby needs some reassurance. I’m on a forum for shy people on the internet (which is helping) in which I have a link to my main blog and I know your comment will help. Comments like yours are really, really nice to hear for all shy people, and I’m incredibly thankful for it. Everyone is a little shy, a little outgoing, a little of this or the other. It’s nice to know there will be a way back for me to a more outgoing personality even after more than a decade of being shy.

      It’s lovely to hear that someone likes my posts, especially as feedback on a site this small is rare. I find my posts tedious and dull, so to hear ‘humorous and interesting’ was a pleasant shock. I tend to speak my posts aloud, as if I were talking to a friend, and write down what I’m saying in a way that best sums up my rants, thoughts and colloquialisms. My style may be a little crazy but we’re all a little crazy up here in North Yorkshire.

      I think during my whole life, I’ve got a sense that introverts and the shy are looked down on, and people often treat me that way. There has always been a feeling that I would never be an extrovert and was incapable of showing that side, but I’m glad someone believes I’m proving them wrong.

      I live with my parents and I’m actually 22, but I don’t update my blog pages on any of my three blogs that often because I don’t think anyone reads them anyway. I’ve updated it now with a bit about my family in it. That was a very good suggestion, which I’m always open to about my three sites. I guess, most of the time, about what people might like and need, so I do miss certain stuff now and agian.

      I can’t express my gratitude enough at your very kind thoughts and words, but it’s nice to know there’s someone out there. Thank you.

      (P.S. – If you liked my take on moths, just wait until the next post when you’ll get my take on double-decker busses).

      1. Christine.

        Hi Ally,

        No worries. I hate it if anyone is bullied in any way. Which is one of the reasons I commented. The other reason was to let you know that I do like what you write and I find it funny. I tend write how I speak too, which is what made me read your stuff. As far as I’m concerned, there’s nothing wrong with that (I have to say that, seeing as I’m the same). I have friends who come from North Yorkshire (or thereabouts) and they’re much the same. Having said that, I’m just as crazy so it doesn’t matter where you’re from. Ha.

        Double-decker buses? Mmm… Can’t wait to read that!

        Thanks Ally.

        From Christine :)

  2. GG

    I am so glad I stumbled across your blog. I have a hard time with many things others consider “normal” social behaviour, although I’ve learned to fake a lot of it. I can make small talk with people while wishing I were a hundred miles away. Thank you – for your online extroversion, courage and way with words. I look forward to reading more of your thoughts.


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